I've heard people say how different cycling can be the second time around, and that's certainly been true for me. It's not that I don't want it to succeed just as badly, but I am so effing distracted by the rest of my life that the various preparations (shots, pills, scans, blood draws) are almost an afterthought. Which I think has actually been a good thing in many ways.
To be sure, a FET is a lot simpler than a fresh IVF cycle. No stims, limited monitoring, no retrieval, etc. So I'm sure that's part of it. But I think the bigger part is that the mystery is gone -- I'm not scared of the unknown, other than of course whether or not I'll get pregnant and whether that pregnancy will stick. Even the PIO shots are no big deal -- I've been giving them to myself, which I couldn't even imagine last time around. Is it horrible that I'm just trying to deal with the bigger stuff as it comes? Intellectually I know that not stressing out is not going to negatively affect the outcome (and it may even help), but it still feels weird.
Anyway, if anyone out there is still reading this sorry excuse for a blog, would you mind shooting a couple of good thoughts our way? First, that our little blastie survives the thaw, and then maybe that he/she burrows in there nice and good?
Thanks -- I'm sure I'll be updating from my horizontal position tomorrow and Tuesday.
Good luck tomorrow!
Ah! I posted too soon...then I keep having trouble getting past the secure check...anyway, I originally wrrote alot(3times actually), just wanted to say I'm happy to have found your blog...I'm transferrring our last blast tomorrow too. I'll check back in tomorrow! Good luck!
Good luck, Barefoot!! :)
Will do! Go, blastie! (Can totally relate about the second-time-around oddness.) I'll be thinking of you.
You have alot to juggle... I understand. I just did an IUI as something to do... I have 3 frosties, but dont want to use them just yet. I had an intraabdominal ectopic and a chemical pregnancy in the spring. It was a rough spring. But where once you were trying to get the injections exactly on time, etc, now you just hope you remember all the meds. I wish you good luck! Let us know sooner... missed you posting!!!
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