Saturday, June 19, 2010

Dang it!

Well, it was bound to happen sometime.

I got my period.

For the first time since March 2009.

And you know how I know that I haven't completely left the infertility journey behind? Because I was DISAPPOINTED. Not just because now I have to go back to buying feminine products and eschewing white pants, but because a leetle teeny tiny part of me was wondering if maybe just maybe I was miraculously pregnant again already! Even with the breastfeeding! And the sperm count!


The good news: I can finally drop that middle-of-the-night pump. Because now that my supply has been officially deemed A Joke, and now that Aunt Flo is back, there is no conceivable frickin' reason for me to get up in the middle of the night.

Does my body even know how to sleep more than 5 hours in a stretch?

I shall report back.


Anonymous said...

I got mine this month too, and I was all excited, as it means we can start trying for number 2 soon. And then I got freaked out as I'm not ready to get pregnant again yet! Ah, the conflict of the recently infertile...

Ben & Anne said...

Urgh, totally know how you feel.... I said to my husband that I can't imagine having truely non baby making sx again, there's always that little glimmer of hope (even tho it's about the same odds as winning the lottery!) . My supply deteriorated when af arrived, and further when I then stopped pumping at night v soon after like you you but sleeping through the night and letting dh deal with any night needs even if they involve milk is priceless!